I Am Spaghetti

I Am Spaghetti
by Ashley Jataun Moore
3.1.10

I am spaghetti

Sometimes sticky with emotions

Brittle when dried out

Coming to life when refreshed by Living Water

Expanding rather than breaking in boiling water

Resilient, growing, developing

Flexible, wanting to accommodate and please

Other times congealed and settled

Not always making sense

Sometimes tangled up on the inside

Rinsed in the Spirit, I am clean

With the right combinations and connections – ground chuck, Ragu, Pesto –

I reach my fullest potential

Green peppers, onions, tomatoes – I go to higher heights

A little brown sugar, dash of salt and pepper – life is more full

I am spaghetti

Though at times fighting against the nature of pasta

Trying to make my noodles into waffles

Thinking that life would be easier if I felt, acted, thought differently

Thinking I should and could have a better handle on things if I were different

Having a different kind of strength, a different type of structure, a different mode of thought and expression

Nevertheless, I remain to be pasta

I am spaghetti

At times it’s necessary to go against the current of life

Moving beyond the status quo

Pressing to reach the fullness of potential

Endeavoring to be in the heart, the center of God’s will

Choosing to live the life of one chosen, set apart, “in the world but not of the world”

Nevertheless, intuition and discernment are necessary

Discerning the tide, identifying the current

Not fighting against who I AM

Knowing what habits and cycles must be changed and broken

Yet realizing the core, the essence of me is to be developed and nurtured

So…

I am spaghetti

Meant to have a life intertwined

Jesus all day, flowing all throughout my veins

Love and compassion 24/7

A mind alert

Birthing poems at 7, 3, 12, and 1 AM or PM, it doesn’t matter

On napkins, in notebooks, in the margins of programs

Wisdom never resting, but ever growing

A student and teacher simultaneously

Humble and confident

Weak yet strong

Passionate yet disciplined

Free yet knowing when and how to submit

I am spaghetti

The Spirit within

Offering to regulate and call forth what’s needed to be

When it’s needed to be

The Spirit within, my on and off switch,

My indicator and dictator of when and what features are to be dominant or recessive

I am spaghetti

Entrusted with the task of practicing and continuing to be led by the Spirit

Continuing to develop me

Every aspect

Letting myself evolve and develop into all God called me to be

Not fighting against the core of me, the calling on me

Not trying to fit a different mold

Rather being okay with who I am

Making decisions that will help me fully develop into all of me

I am spaghetti